Raise Your GlassMarch 16, 2011
So tomorrow I get to drink this:
But… I don’t have a choice. I will do this at tomorrow at about 11-1/2 weeks, to test for gestational diabetes, and
So why do I have to do this so early this time? Well… because I had it before. Why did I have it before? Because I was
Remember this post? And this one? Those were my hints to you I was pregnant. Go back and read them. They'll give you context on why I so distrust my body... why I feel doomed to fail at pregnancy. I’m terrified my body is going to rebel again this pregnancy, and I’m terrified of what that means for me… and my baby. Last time it meant 27 days in the nicu. I can't do that again. I just can't.
I have to remember that past failures do not predict future results. They don’t. That has to be my mantra. My life has changed. I am healthier and 115 pounds less than 2-1/2 years ago… and I’m about 135 pounds less than I was when I was pregnant with my "L". The rules SHOULD be different this time, I know that deep down… but there is no guarantee. If you aren't familiar with my pregnancy story with "L" you should probably read this.
So tomorrow morning at 8:30 central time I will raise my glass of orange glucose drink to health and an uneventful pregnancy. Join me if you want – of course with your own drink of choice - and raise your own glass to celebrate the changes you’ve made in your own health, however big or small, this year, month, or even week. CHEERS!