BittersweetMarch 14, 2011
I originally wrote this part of this post on Thursday, March 3rd....
Today was bittersweet... you see, it was a day I have waited for since I began this journey to lose weight back in October of 2008. Getting to this day has meant more to me than reaching 100 pounds, goal, or even lifetime. And yet it is a day I have in many ways dreaded since I began my journey 2-1/2 years ago at the very same time.
See... today I attended my last Weight Watchers meeting! No, I certainly don't think "I'm done", or that I don't need Weight Watchers anymore. But the fact is today I revealed to my CWWL and my whole gang that
As I walked out of my meeting room for the last time until probably the end of this year, I thought I would feel scared and overwhelmed. I would be on my own as far as eating goes... for the first time in 2-1/2 years.... but I didn't. I felt an amazing sense of accomplishment, AND of peace.
This part I wrote today:
It was not an easy secret to keep these past few months, but the whole process around all of my pregnancies has always been tentative at best, so I felt it was best to keep it to myself until I was feeling more certain about it all. At 7 weeks I had an ultrasound that showed a teeny tiny heart beating away... on Friday at nearly 11 weeks, I heard my baby's heartbeat on the Doppler for the first time. It was amazing!
This is it... THIS is the ultimate goal. Everything I've done for the past 2-1/2 years was just training to get to this - like an ultimate marathon... except its not a race... I'm growing a person!
A New Journey. One I've been on before... but never in this way. Never healthy as a normal weight person.
Overwhelming. Scary. Grateful. Exciting.