What I am MOST Thankful ForNovember 24, 2010
Four years ago in November 2006, I sat on Thanksgiving sad and fearful for the future. I had a horrible year. I had become pregnant earlier in the year only to suffer a miscarriage, and then be diagnosed with PCOS and resulting infertility. I was told that because I was so fat, I would have difficulty conceiving a child. I was told that if I did conceive I would have a 50 percent chance of a miscarriage. I was disheartened and broken! I felt betrayed by my body and forgotten by God. I weighed about 125 pounds more than I do today. I didn't see how I could be given a different future.
On New Years Day 2007 - only a little more than 1 month later, I woke up on New Years morning to a positive pregnancy test. I was both overjoyed and unbelievably scared. I spent the next 7-1/2 months throwing up, stressing out, checking blood sugars, and my pregnancy culminated in an emergency C-section with 3 pound 4 oz little boy who spent 27 days in the NICU. Regardless of the circumstances, I was blessed. The first year of my son's life passed quickly but I still found myself 115 pounds heavier than today. My future certainly had been changed with the long-awaited addition of a child, but I still felt like I didn't have much of a future at my current weight. I certainly couldn't me the mother I wanted to be at that weight. And then I was told by my doctor that my weight was a contributing factor in my pregnancy issues, and would likely result in infertility for me if I wanted to have any more children. I needed to change something. I needed to change my life. This was probably one of the last pictures that was taken of me as I started this journey...
|Me Thanksgiving 2008|