Ready or NotSeptember 13, 2011
With Monday’s doctor appointment now out of the way, I am headed into 1 more doctor appointment on Thursday, where as the explanation sheet I received puts it:
“a needle will be gently inserted into your stomach”
Umm… yeah right… I’ve never thought of gentleness and needles going together.
“… You will feel some pressure”
Not to mention the feeling that your heart is going to thump out of your chest!
“After the procedure you will receive a Band-Aid to cover the needle insertion site.”
Ok… now that I’m done with my freaking out about the amnio… we can continue.
Time for some truth. I really do not have it together at all right now. I am trying hard to stay positive and not scared, but nothing is helping. I want to have a calmness over me these next few days and especially Friday, but I’m having a hard time getting there. The thought of the surgery itself is really bugging me. I’m definitely a type A person, and I need … ok I guess I want to be in control. Everything is so out of control, and has been for months now! Every morning I hug my little “L” as I send him off to preschool, and wonder if this is the last time I’ll see him before I have my surgery (I really should say give birth to my daughter, but since we’re being honest here that is really what goes through my head).